Aliens are on Earth now and have been here for a long time!?!

My entire life I trusted government officials and scientists who said that people who claim to have been abducted by UFO’s are crazy and/or on drugs, that information spreading about government holding UFO’s is conspiracy theories without any foundation, and I figured that it makes sense that aliens wouldn’t be able to get here from the vast distances in space anyway. In theory, yes, undoubtedly, there are alien civilizations on other planets. In practice, I have believed the general consensus that the distances are too great even for an advanced civilization to overcome.

2017 an article was published by Pulitzer price winning authors in the New York Times about how there are US military personnel with high credibility that have observed UFO’s in 2004; called the tic-tac UFO due to its shape. After this, Pentagon released videos of the tic-tac UFO. Some dismissed the videos of the tic-tac UFO as possibly birds or whatever, but then it turned out that the objects were recorded by radar over a period of 14 days or so. Those in US government with clearance to see top secret material were shown videos and images with more details, and described it as a somewhat shocking experience to watch. These are not home-made videos that someone made to get more money – it’s the US military with radar and thermal cameras etc sensitive instruments to back it up.

US Congress answered to the tic-tac material by creating AARO; an organization that was supposed to uncover the truth about UFO’s and gather material from the entire military. Then they renamed UFO’s (unidentified flying objects) to UAP’s (unidentified anomalous phenomenon) because 1) the objects have been observed both flying in air and moving under water as well as from air to water and 2) they wanted to include dense air or ball lightning or other unusual natural phenomenon in the same description so that all available data would be captured for analysis.

GOP Oversight Committee 2023-07-26

Last week, one of the “checks and balances” in US government – a committee that has top secret clearance and should monitor the activities of government organizations – held a hearing with three witnesses. This is not the first time they had a hearing. Previously, Kirkpatrick (the boss of AARO) has been testifying for this committee on how the work of AARO is progressing and he told them that there is absolutely no evidence that alien craft has ever been on Earth, nor have they been able to find any compelling evidence that UAP’s are alien. Since US Congress created AARO and appointed Kirkpatrick with the aim of uncovering the truth about these recent videos and sightings, it would appear that the explanation of natural phenomenon are more likely after Kirkpatricks testimony – even if we cannot understand how or why such natural phenomenon would occur.

Commander Fravor

Because he was one of the pilots that directly observed with his eyes as well as recording with cameras the tic-tac UAP of 2004, Commander Fravor was an important witness. He could attest that when the USS Nimitz was stationed outside California there were indeed several objects recorded over the sea, going out into space, and interacting with a large object under water. The object under water caused the water to bubble or boil so that the otherwise calm sea was white in a spot. While his testimony didn’t bring anything new forward, it was an important foundation to have a first-hand account with experience of interacting with UAP’s.

Commander Fravor was the only witness from the tic-tac incident, but could testify that they were four pilots in the air observing the tic-tac objects in California and that the radar staff had observed them for two weeks before they sent the planes out to investigate.

Liutenant Ryan Graves

Ryan Graves is responsible for the safety of pilots in the US Air Force. He has seen “fotball field sized” UAP’s first hand, and received shocked pilots when they land after almost colliding with UAP’s. According to his testimony, these UAP’s are almost exclusively black cubes inside of a transparent sphere. In other words, different in appearance from the tic-tac object and with a significantly more defined artificial structure that wouldn’t occur naturally. This is a step up from the tic-tac object just because it is clear that it cannot be explained as a natural phenomenon.

Both Commander Fravor and Liutenant Graves were adamant that there isn’t technology anywhere near these objects in the hands of US military or the military of other countries. In other words; it has to be off-world technology. Aliens.

Liutenant Graves was the only witness about cubes inside clear spheres, but could testify that there are numerous military as well as commercial pilots that have witnessed these objects, that they also show up on radar and other sensitive instruments, and that it is today common occurrence to witness these objects; they are not isolated and rare events. Graves insisted that a framework needs to be developed for reporting and gathering data about UAP’s (which is the purpose of AARO which was created a year ago but apparently they are not doing their job according to Graves).

The UAP observations that Graves is talking about is from when he was stationed in Virginia, which is south of Washington D.C. (the capitol of US). In other words, the opposite side of the US compared with Fravor.

(Former) Intelligence Officer David Grusch

Sitting in the center, but last on my list, was David Grusch. He has top secret clearance, which is beyond my understanding but he has a code 50 whereas the AARO staff only has code 10 so he has a higher clearance and can access more information that the government organization appointed to investigate UAP occurences. Reading up on his background, everyone confirms that he is a person of the highest integrity and utterly trustworthy. As an intelligence officer, his job is to interview people, look at data, and determine the truth of matters at hand. As such, he was part of collecting information for the US President and personally handed over top secret material to the presidents hands. Grusch is basically the most trusted person in the USA and extremely competent in gathering information that has proven time and again to be correct.

One of the things Grusch said was that he informed Kirkpatrick before he started his position as boss of AARO about proof of aliens and who to talk to in order to obtain such proof. In other words; Kirkpatrick lied to Congress under oath and should go to jail (unless, of course, in an unexpected turn of events Grusch decided to throw his life away and lie blatantly to Congress on a matter that can easily be disproven if they follow up on his claims – in which case Grusch should go to jail). He also testified that funds have been misappropriated from government programs to secretly fund alien research and reverse-engineering of alien technology. Stealing government funds in this way is a serious crime, of course, so Grusch kept on presenting information that should put a lot of people on high seats in US military in prison for a long time.

Roswell is a highly controversial event in the 1940’s, when US military claimed to have seized an alien spacecraft which was communicated to reporters and then they abruptly changed their story as having captured a weather balloon. People have been saying since the 1940’s that the weather balloon story was a cover-up of a secret government project to reverse-engineer alien technology to gain either financial gain or military edge. Now, at the time in the 1940’s this could very well have happened. But after CIA activities in the 60’s or 70’s a new law was put in effect that made it illegal to mislead the US population. Government agences in the US can have top secret information, but they are not allowed to lie and mislead. Grusch stated in his testimony that not only has US government agencies had a covert alien reverse-engineering program since at least the 1930’s (before Roswell), which they are continually lying about and stealing funds for from other programs, but that also there is an active initiative to spread disinformation and mislead the US population as well as other countries. Another illegal activity added to the list.

Finally, Grusch stated that the UAP’s are not only lifeless drones, but that “biologics” were found and being kept by the same reverse-engineering efforts. In other words – aliens are here on Earth, not just their technology. Now, Grusch didn’t want to say that they were from another star system, so he kept saying that they are non-human biologics. When asked about this, he said that extra-terrestrial beings have not been proven to be from any particular planet and they might as well be for example from another dimension of space. When further asked about this, he said he couldn’t say anything for sure but there is a theoretical framework to talk about other dimensions such as the holographic theory. This is the only weakness of Grusch’s testimony, because he is not a physicist and doesn’t actually know what he is talking about and the only reason he went into it was due to the questions of the committee, which they really shouldn’t have asked in the first place because Grusch was not there to testify about the possible origins of non-human individuals captured. Obviously, this has since been used to discredit Grusch, saying that he has no idea what he is talking about and taking his answer out of context from the questions that led up to it, which only serves to prove him right actually since he is saying that there is a deliberate effort to discredit and disinform. Not only that, but Grusch claimed people have been killed and threatened if they disclose any information about the hidden UFO/UAP programs.


All my life, I truested government officials and scientists who have been saying that aliens on Earth are impossible. Now we have two highly credible military witnesses, numerous recordings of military grade video and radar, confirming metallic objects in the sky that move beyond anything that is technically possible from a human understanding (but not beyond laws of physics as we know them). So what is the lie and cover-up? Have they been lying since the 1940’s or longer about the non-existence of aliens? Or are they lying now about these testimonies and videos and radar data? I would trust an instrument more than I trust a human, and I have seen the military recordings (what has been released) which makes me suddenly end up in the opposite camp; aliens are here now and have been for a long time.

This is the biggest news story of the century. George Bush ordered the attack on the Twin Towers as an excuse to start a war to get cheaper oil – who cares?! Trump tried a coup and is awaiting trial – who cares?! Nuclear missiles were almost fired several times – who cares?! Hitler was defeated – so what?! Fucking aliens from a different world are here and they have technology that far surpasses us. They can destroy us, or let us live. Any day it may occur that they are not pleased with humans and then all of us are gone. All religions are fradulent – by proof. Nietzsche was right; God is dead! There are news that should cause international turmoil all over the world.

Headlines in Swedish newspapers; nothing. One single article, in Dagens Nyheter, says “Grusch is risking prison by talking about alien technnology”. Not Kirkpatrick; Grusch. The most reliable and trustworthy man in the US is suddenly a liar who should go to jail, according to these reporters. And it’s the same story in other countries. Basically, people are so invested in the lie we have been told that they refuse to accept the truth when it is staring them in the eyes. What???

Bob Lazar

One of the consequences of the information that has now come out is that a lot of nutjobs that were previously dismissed turns out to be reliable witnesses. Well, the jury is still out on that I suppose, but there is definitely reason to examine some testimonies from the past. Bob Lazar is one such character.

Bob claimed in the 1980’s that he worked on a secret government project at Area 51 section 4 where they reverse-engineered alien spacecraft that crashed. There were at least seven craft recovered, and Bob had access to at least two. According to Bob, these were flying saucers – not tic-tacs or spheres with cubes inside but kind of flat upside-down saucers like the old cartoons. Around the sides of the flying saucers, on the inside, were arches and two floors with a “basement”. First floor had the power generator, which according to Lazar works with anti-matter. The basement has three gravity-generators that cause the ship to move by creating a point of gravity that the ship is attracted to. The second floor was off-limits to Lazar but he assumes that the navigational equipment was up there.

Bob Lazar appears to be a credible witness and he has been sticking with his story for 40 years without changing any details, but he has suffered from a lack of evidence and a whole world of disbelief due to the US Army denying any claims. But now that the US government higher ups are changing the story to say that actually there are alien ships in their possession Bob Lazar appears to be telling the truth.

4chan of May 2023

In the spring of 2023 an anonymous person started posting on 4chan about his “knowledge” of UAP’s. Everything he is saying matches with what Bob Lazar has said. Except of course, that he is saying the UFO’s are tic-tac shaped, not disc-shaped saucers like Bob Lazar has been saying for 40 years that he saw at Area 51. He is also saying that the tic-tac UAP’s come from a “mother-ship” under water, similar to how Fravor described the tic-tacs interacting with an object under water. Except of course, that he is saying that this mother-ship is located in the Bermuda triangle on the East coast, not the West coast where Fravor et al had their encounter. He also doesn’t mention any of the cubes-in-spheres that Graves said are all over the East coast.

While this anonymous poster provides a lot of details, and claims he is only willing to come forward due to liver cancer because he will be dead soon anyway, it does not seem to be particularly credible. Being anonymous with a “terminal disease” he will just disappear at any time. The “information” he provides appear to be a puzzle of things picked up from others rather than his own account of events. And so on, if you look into the details of what he says you will see more inconsistencies.

So there are still crackpots out there, spreading disinformation. You cannot trust everything you read. Especially since Grusch is saying that even the government of US is actively engaged in programs to spread disinformation.

But. The big but. Aliens are real. Aliens are here. Aliens are around us just now. From trusted sources and instruments that cannot lie, this appears to be the truth.

What do they want?

For me, the big question that remains is; what do they want? If there are people from another planet here with us, and they have been here for at least 100 years, what do they want?

They are not likely to be hostile, because if they were we would all be dead already.

They do not appear to be friendly or helpful, according to what Grusch has testified.

Neutral? From what many people in militaries all over the world are saying, and have been saying for some time even though no one has been taking them seriously until now, is that these UAP’s are particularly interested in areas of war and conflict, especially where nuclear weapons could come into play. Most of the time they are just observing, but both Russia and US have reported missile silos with nuclear rockets being armed by UAP’s up until launch and then aborted, as if they want to show that they can turn those weapons on or off at will.

Perhaps they are an intergalactic police force, that only acts in cases of extreme danger? Although, we are already in extreme danger due to climate crisis and they didn’t do anything about that – yet.

Shit happens, and then you die. I guess at some point we will find out. Would be nice if it happened in my lifetime. I’m curious.

Prediktiv modellering av Covid-19

Till att börja med har jag fått frågan “varför är du rädd för Covid?”, vilket jag tycker är en mycket märklig fråga eftersom jag aldrig uttryckt någon rädsla för Covid. Däremot har jag försökt vara tydlig med att jag anser att man måste vara väldigt försiktig med Covid-smitta, så låt mig förklara varför.

När du kör bil tar du på dig säkerhetsbältet, du kör försiktigt och följer alla trafikregler. Orsaken till att du är försiktig när du kör bil är att du inte vill vara orsak till att du själv eller någon annan dör. En person som avsiktligt kör en bil i hög hastighet rakt mot en folkmassa kan inte vara säker på att någon dör (folkmassan hinner kanske flytta sig) men stämplas ändå som terrorist och mördare för man utgår ifrån att bilföraren kände till möjligheten att människor skulle dö och skadas för livet som följd. Jag anser att den som avsiktligt sprider ett virus som kan döda och skada andra människor också ska stämplas som terrorist och mördare, och jag har definitivt inte tänkt sätta mig själv i en sådan roll. En person som kör bil oförsiktigt (rattonykterhet, brott mot trafikregler, osv) straffas för brott även om det inte sker en olycka och straffas för dråp om någon dör som följd av hans/hennes oförsiktighet. Jag anser att den som uppträder oförsiktigt och sprider ett virus som kan döda och skada andra (även om det inte funnits avsikt att döda eller skada) på samma sätt ska dömas för brott och dråp, och jag har definitivt inte tänkt sätta mig själv i en sådan roll. Av den anledningen försöker jag vara tydlig med att det inte räcker att tvätta händerna, det räcker inte att använda handsprit, utan man måste vara försiktig med att röra sig i samhället och man bör använda munskydd om man måste tillbringa tid i närheten av andra människor. Inte för att jag är rädd för vad viruset kan orsaka mig personligen, utan för att som vuxen och ansvarsfull människa så anser jag inte att det finns något annat val.

Med det sagt tänkte jag försöka visa lite bättre än vad media visar vad man kan förvänta sig av Covid-19 de närmaste åren.

Det har tagit ett tag innan jag velat ge mig på en sådan här modellering för det har inte funnits något tillförlitligt data att använda som underlag. Media älskar att rapportera “bekräftade fall”, men det är en helt värdelös siffra som inte säger något alls. Det enda som är någorlunda rättvisande är antalet döda. Bekräftade fall beror på hur många man testat och vilka man valt att testa osv så det går inte jämföra mellan olika länder eftersom alla länder har olika strategier kring hur man testar folk och det säger inget alls om hur många som är smittade.

När man smittas av SARS-CoV-2 tar det ungefär fem dagar innan man börjar uppvisa symptom, och sedan tar det 1-4 veckor innan man dör (om man är en sån som kommer att dö). Antalet döda idag är alltså en reflektion av hur många smittade det fanns för ca 3 veckor sedan. Media rapporterar hela tiden summan smittade och summan döda (se nästa bild), men det är egentligen inte alls intressant.

Det som är intressant att veta är hur många smittas varje dag, och det får man veta genom att ta reda på hur många som dör varje dag (se nästa bild). Antalet människor som dör idag återspeglar alltså hur många som var smittade för ca 3 veckor sedan. För att få veta hur många som smittas idag får vi vänta 3 veckor till, dvs ungefär den 22:a april.

Det skuggade området runt den blå linjen i bilden visar att det är en viss osäkerhet vilken dag som dödsfallen egentligen hör till, och den blå kurvan som visar genomsnittligt antal döda per dag kan vara mer rätt att lägga på någon annan plats inom det skuggade området. Vad som är helt klart är att vi har en exponentiell ökning av antalet dödsfall, precis som övriga världen.

Exponentiell tillväxt räknas ut ungefär så här: Varje smittad person möter ett visst antal personer och av de personer som möts finns en viss risk att smitta överförs. För att komma fram till en kurva som liknar den rapporterade kurvan ovan har jag provat mig fram och landat på att om dödligheten är 0,9 % måste det vara så att smittan överförs till i genomsnitt 19 personer av varje sjuk person, då hamnar man på samma kurva som rapporterats.

När man varit sjuk blir man immun och kan inte bli sjuk igen. När en större del av befolkningen redan varit smittade minskar alltså risken för att smittan sprids vidare, så att det blir mindre än 0,9 %. Dessutom kommer de som dör inte längre att vara en del av populationen och kan inte heller smittas eller sprida smitta vidare. När hela befolkningen blivit immun kommer alltså risken för att smittan förs vidare vara nere på 0 %. Det gör att smittan sprids väldigt snabbt i ett inledningsskede, för att sedan spridas väldigt långsamt under en längre tid.

För att få fram dödligheten (mina 0,9 %) måste vi veta hur många som varit smittade fastän de inte dött så att vi kan räkna ner smittorisken motsvarande mängd. Det vi vet är att det tar ungefär 3 veckor innan man dör efter smitta. Den bästa uppskattningen vi kan få av dödlighet är att se på de länder som har testat väldigt stor del av sin befolkning. Island har en väldigt liten befolkning, så de har hunnit testa en mycket större del av befolkningen än andra länder, därför kan man anse att deras rapportering av bekräftat smittade är mer att lita på och de är dessutom ett land med liknande kultur och miljö som Sverige. Tar man då antal döda på Island idag (2 personer) jämfört med hur många de rapporterat som smittade för 2 veckor sedan (det tar 5 dagar för provsvar att komma tillbaka, alltså beskriver rapporten för de som smittats för 2 veckor sedan hur många som faktiskt var smittade för 3 veckor sedan) så kommer jag fram till att 0.9 % av de som smittats på Island har dött till följd av Covid.

Om man då räknar på en dödlighet av 0.9 % och sätter in i modellen som passar in på Svenska dödssiffror (19 personer smittas av varje smittbärare) kommer man fram till ovanstående prediktion av hur framtiden ser ut för Sverige. Toppen kommer att inträffa den 6:e maj med 1377 döda, dvs vi kommer aldrig mer att ha så många smittade som vi har 14:e april. Om två år, i mars 2022, kommer vi att ha 4 personer som dör varje dag. Totalt har då 92 075 personer dött av Covid. Det gäller såklart bara om vi fortsätter att bete oss som vi gjort hittills under 2 år framöver; ändrar vi beteende så förändras även kurvan. Man kan ju tänka sig att när folk ser att färre dör så tycker man att nu är det över och börjar röra sig runt i samhället, men då smittar man fler än 19 personer när man är smittsam och så förändras kurvan helt och hållet. Nyckeln är alltså att vara uthållig och leva precis som vi gör nu under 2 år framåt.

Kina har rapporterat en dödlighet för hela befolkningen på i genomsnitt
0,5 %, dvs nästan hälften av vad man sett på Island än så länge. Så vad händer om vi ändrar modellen till att ha lägre dödlighet? Jo, vi måste anpassa modellen så att 36 personer blir smittade i genomsnitt av varje smittbärare, dvs om Kina har rätt är vi svenskar mycket sämre på att låta bli att smitta ner andra.

Med lägre dödlighet kommer vi att vara uppe på 833 dödsfall per dygn den 30:e april. Om 2 år kommer vi att vara nere på 2 dödsfall per dag pga Covid. Totalt, efter 2 års tid utan att ha sett slutet på pandemin, har 51 164 personer i Sverige fått sätta livet till. Det är återigen under förutsättning att vi fortsätter leva precis som vi gör idag, och med den belastning vården får i en sådan situation kan man räkna med att många fler dör än så, och att ingen kan ta hand om de som är sjuka och döende så att fler smittas än modellen förutsäger. Om Kinas siffror stämmer kommer vi alltså vara i totalt kaos om 3 veckor, utan någon som helst chans att påverka det eftersom det vi gör för att påverka inte syns förrän 3 veckor senare.

Mängden som dör av Covid är rätt liten enligt alla modeller hittills. Men de som behöver sjukhusvård är desto fler; 5-15 % beroende på vem man frågar. I Sverige, än så länge, passar modellen bäst om 2,7 % av de som smittas behöver sjukhusvård om vi utgår från en dödlighet på 0,9 % som Island. I så fall kommer toppen vid sjukhusen att komma den 5:e maj med 9 943 nya sjukhusinlagda per dag. Den 27:e april kommer tusen om dan att läggas in på sjukhus. Förmodligen kommer det att krossa vårt antagande om att bara 0,9 % dör, för sjukvården mäktar inte med att ta in så många så att man kan hellre anta att många fler kommer att avlida på grund av detta.

Säger man då att “du kan leva som vanligt, sluta oroa dig, tvätta bara händerna” och så stiger smittorisken eller antalet människor man träffar under den period man är smittsam stiger från 19 personer i genomsnitt till 36 personer i genomsnitt, då får vi räkna om hela modellen igen. Därför säger jag, återigen som en papegoja, det räcker inte att tvätta händerna, det räcker inte att använda handsprit, utan sitt hemma och använd telefon istället för att besöka folk och använd munskydd när du måste vara i närheten av andra.

Närmare jämförelse av faktiska dödsfall (svart) jämfört med modellen baserat på Island (röd) som jag fixade ett par dagar efter att jag skrev texten. Notera att jag avsiktligt gjort modellen mer försiktig än vad rapporterade dödsfall verkar peka på.

P.S. Virus muterar när de sprids, och ju fler människor viruset sprids till desto större är risken att en mutering leder till att den immunitet som byggts upp inte fungerar längre. Vid det laget kanske det finns vaccin som hjälper lite, men det kan också bli så att vi får uppleva hela Covid-19-cirkusen igen med Covid-22 eller nåt liknande.


I started trying to calculate the movements inside our solar system, but it is a lot more complicated than I ever thought it would be.

First of all, you have the Earth rotation. The easiest way to describe the Earth rotation is to do it relative to the sun. The rotation in a day is not 360 degrees. Earth is orbiting around the sun, so since the position of the Earth is different the angle to the sun changes over the course of a day. One day is of course the time it takes for the sun to appear in exactly the same position as before, for example zenith. If you look at the time of zenith and the rotation of the Earth between two such times, there is 360 degrees rotation of the Earth plus the orbit movement so that the Earth has to rotate a little bit more before the sun is back at zenith again. This turns out to be 360.9856 degrees.

Earth’s orbit is what we call a year. It takes 365.2422 days (Earth rotations) for one year (orbit) to complete. The orbit is actually an ellipse, it is not a circle. The amount of “ovality” that an ellipse has is called eccentricity. Earth’s orbit does not have a constant eccentricity, it changes over time from 0.000055 to 0.0679. When the orbit is more eccentric, there are larger differences in the amount of sunlight during summer/winter on the northern/southern hemispheres because the sun is not in the center of the orbit. It takes 413’000 years for the orbit eccentricity to complete one cycle. The current eccentricity is 0.017 and we are going towards a more circular orbit. Jupiter and Saturn are the influences that cause the eccentricity to change, because they pull the Earth away from the sun during part of their orbits. As the eccentricity changes, the speed of orbit also changes, so that the time of one year is always the same. Earth has a slower orbit when it is close to the sun and a faster orbit when it is far away from the sun. When the eccentricity of orbit is close to zero then the changes in orbital velocity is also close to zero. The eccentricity itself is also circulating, so that the point of the egg-shape is rotating around the sun. This is called apsidal precession. Apsidal precession takes 112’000 years to complete a full cycle. Finally, there is some wobble to the orbit, like if you spin a plate before it lies flat on a table there is a wobble, but the orbital inclination has a rather small effect with a 100’000 year cycle.

We also have something called axial precession. The rotation of the Earth has a center from the north pole to the south pole that we call the axis. This is where the rotation speed is slowest. Compared to Earth’s orbit, the axis is tilting. This makes the northern hemisphere be closer to the sun for part of the year and farther from the sun for another part of the year. It also means that if we look up on the stars in the night, one star will appear to stand still whereas the others move in circles due to the Earth’s rotation. Axial precession means that the axis is moving in a circle, so that the star that appears to be standing still constantly changes. Right now, the star Polaris in the Ursa minor constellation is our northern star, but eventually the north star will be in the constellation Draco instead. The axial precession has a cycle of 25’771.5 years. Additionally, the angle of the axle against the orbit changes over time. Right now, the axial tilt is 23.44 degrees, but it changes between 22.1 degrees to 24.5 degrees. The next minimum occurs in 11’800 CE.

That’s it for Earth. The sun is fairly simple, it has a rotation time around 25 days that doesn’t really impact much at all. The moon has an orbit around 29.5 days and a rotation that keeps it facing the Earth with the same side despite the orbit.

When you get into other planets, it gets a whole lot more complicated. Mercury, Venus, and Mars don’t have moons so they are not too complicated by themselves, but for Saturn and Jupiter there are lots of moons to consider. All large objects will modify gravity wells and the movement of heavenly bodies. Making an accurate model of the whole solar system is just way more complicated than I ever imagined. Not sure if I will ever finish this project.


When I was a kid we had monthly calendars where the name of the month was surrounded by flowers in the summer, yellow leaves in the autumn (or rain), snow in the winter, etc. Every month has a clear association with it. Old viking names for the months were related to harvest in the late summer, then butchering in the autumn, the Yule feast, then the marrow sucker where you didn’t have much to eat, etc. So the seasons are associated with food and weather, and of course light or darkness.

Living in Thailand, I feel weird. All the time, I find myself humming Christmas tunes, because my mind keeps waiting for that season to arrive and it should have been here 2 years ago. Every day is the same. Thai tradition say that they have three seasons: winter (or dry season), summer (season of fruits), and rainy season (autumn). To be honest, I never saw any difference. Every day is fucking hot. Every day has a bit of rain, except for a few weeks around spring months. Floods from excessive raining can happy any time anywhere. The sun rises the same time of day every day, and sets the same time of day every day. The food is the same every day all year round. Pad thai, pad siew yew, kao pad gai, kao pad goong… Always the same selection at the restaurants, and the stores don’t really sell food for cooking because very few people cook at home. I tried growing some vegetables and spices on our balcony; they all die from the sweltering heat.

All my life I thought that the cold is so annoying, and I was dreaming about living in a warm climate. But with the cold, you can put on clothes and you are fine. With the heat in Thailand, you just never stop sweating. We are running the air condition on max cold, and I am still sweating. Walk outside, the shirt is drenched in sweat in a few minutes. There is no point in taking a shower, because when you come out of the shower you just keep getting wet from all the sweat. There is no escaping the heat. Cold is easy to avoid. Just stay inside where it is warm or put on clothes when you go outside. Easy peasy.

All my life I thought that the darkness of the winter is so annoying, and I have been using special lights to simulate the sun. First few weeks in Thailand, I was amazed at how well my biorythm worked with the constant sunlight hours. But after a year or so, my daily pattern is the same here as back home. I am equally tired when I get up in the morning, if not more because the heat makes you tired too. Despite years of seasonal affective disorder (SAD) with the winter darkness giving me depression, I miss the changing of the seasons. Winter depression is bad, but the extra boost of energy you get in the summer light compensates for it. With no seasons, there is just the same routine every day, time disappears and I feel like I never accomplish anything. Nothing in my life is moving forward, but time is flying without me hardly noticing.

There are many things that I used to think of as negative with living in Sweden. Cold, darkness, distanced people, incompetent politicians and leaders… But in light of living in Thailand, Sweden looks like paradise to me.


Visent is the germanic name for the european bison. Bison is the greko-roman name that was predominantly associated with the american bison. The two variants look alike, but the american subspecies is plains-dwelling while the european subspecies is forest-dwelling. There used to be a mountain-dwelling subspecies too, but that has been exterminated by human hunting.

Googling for visent is autocorrected to the first name Vincent. This is really annoying, because it makes it more difficult to find information about the european subspecies. Visents were exterminated in the wild, but have been repopulated from 12 visents that were kept in zoos around the world. Today there are around 3000 visents, with about half of them living wild in Poland.

We used to have visents in Sweden, in Götaland and to a lesser extent in Svealand, but we have killed them all off. The largest Swedish population of visents are in Blekinge in a park where they have around 50 animals. The wild boar was similarly locally exterminated, but has been reintroduced. Wild boars cause big problems when they get into rural areas because they plow up gardens while looking for food in the soil. There have been numerous protests where people want the wild boars gone, but the ones that would remove them would be the hunters, and the hunters want to keep them for sustainable hunting. That is why the wild boar population in Sweden is growing today.

I think it would be really nice if the visent could be reintroduced in the same way that the wild boar was reintroduced. With big game, it is a bigger problem. Moose are already scarce in the south of Sweden because of too high hunting pressure. Visents would probably also be killed off if they were roaming wild. Nevertheless, the reintroduction of wild boar shows that it is possible to do something like this, if the hunting community agrees to let the species reproduce until a sustainable harvest is possible.

The biggest threat a visent could cause is in traffic, where – just like with moose – a collision might lead to death for the people in the car. Other than that, moose are a lot more dangerous than a visent and we allow them to roam freely so why not visents?

Welcome to Japan

I always loved Japan. Great food, interesting culture, great achievements in science and technology. They are rather racist and being a foreigner in Japan can be difficult, but you might also argue that they have reason to think that they are better than everyone else.

What held me back from going to Japan is the constant threat of earth quakes and tsunamis. It is such a random way to get killed, you don’t have a single chance to defend yourself. We have gone anyway, and enjoyed it greatly. There are positive sides to active volcanoes, like hot springs (onsen bath). But it is a bit nervous, especially after Fukushima when you start thinking about what happens when a nuclear plant is affected by an earth quake.

Now North Korea enters the stage. Nuclear weapons and hydrogen bombs. They direct most of their ill will towards USA, but it’s not like South Korea and Japan are safe.

Then we have Russia who are in an active conflict with Japan about those islands, and they are invading countries left and right these days. I wouldn’t put it past Russia to invade Japan.

Meanwhile, China is building their armies and economy. Several countries in Asia are starting to recognize China as the world #1 superpower in place of USA. Who knows what they are up to, in the end. China and Japan are not exactly best of friends.

Then we have global warming and rising sea levels. Most of the Japanese live along the coast, and depend on fishing and aquaculture. Even if we ignore rising sea levels, acidification of the oceans and other effects will impact the aquaculture. What happens when the Japanese will have difficulties feeding their population, since the farm lands are not enough to sustain everyone?

I am really starting to feel like a visit to Japan is kind of “now or never”. The longer you wait, the higher the risk will be for going there. It is not looking too good for the Japanese.


I’ve been on Facebook for about 10 years now. Past few years, it’s been on the phone. Yesterday, I removed the app from my phone.

It wasn’t so much because I hate Facebook. I mean, I post on there once or twice per month maybe. Mostly I just use the chat to keep up with my family. But then there is Skype and Line and many other alternatives available, so I just don’t see much of a reason to keep it around.

They say that people who use Facebook a lot get depressed. Honestly, I would rather think it’s the other way around; if you’re depressed you’re filled with apathy and instead of actually doing anything you end up browsing Facebook all day.

I’ve had my share of depression in my life, but I never associated it with Facebook or those social apps. When I’m feeling down I escape into computer games. Poof, suddenly the weekend is over and you didn’t even notice it.

My laptop still has a tab of Facebook open in Firefox, of course. I’m not completely cut off from the world. But I’m not really that interested in checking it out. Usually I just go there to click Like on something Angsana posted to show her support.

Hot or cold

Is it better to be too hot, or too cold?

All my life I said that I don’t like the cold. I always said that being too hot is better than being too cold, because when you’re too hot you’re just sweating but when you’re too cold you just die (or at least you get numb and pain at the same time and move slow etc).

Now I have lived for two years in Thailand, where temperatures often rise above 37 degrees. It is impossible to cool off by sweating. If you go outside, you will get hotter, and hotter, and hotter, until you collapse. I don’t understand how Thai people do it, because they don’t even seem to break a sweat despite being overheated. I’m telling you, I spend every moment I can indoors where there is air conditioning. As a tourist to Thailand, I said AC is retarded just use a fan if you’re hot. That may work for a short time, or near the coast where the sea and winds keep things cooler. But inland, where it is like a desert only it rains more often, I could not survive without AC. Even with AC I have heat rashes and various skin infections on a regular basis. The human body is not built for this, at least mine is not.

So give me cold any day. Even -40 degrees, where the air is so cold you can feel the ice crystals forming in your mouth and throat if you breathe too fast, it’s better than 40 degrees warm. In cold weather, all you need to do is put on some more clothes and it’s OK to be outside. In warm weather, what do you do? You just sit indoors like a prison.

Sweden has part of the year around 20-30 degrees warm. It’s not too warm, you can still cool off easily. Some small part of the year is disgustingly cold. Even if that cold would be worse than the heat, which it isn’t, then at least it’s not all year round.

The only way to live near the tropics is if you live near the sea, or if you have the option of a pool where you can dip in to cool off. Neither of which are true for most of Thailand.

New beginnings

Our son is born in a few weeks, or maybe tomorrow, who knows. Celebrating that, I am once again making over my personal website, and my old wordpress installation wasn’t up to date.

Here is to new beginnings. And a clean slate to start over. The old stuff is still on the site, and indexed through Google, possibly elsewhere too.